This probably should have been apparent a long time ago, seeing as I suffer from anxiety on a regular basis, but I can not handle stress. This goes to a point where I worry so much, I make myself ill. I get weak, I constantly feel anxious and a lot of the time I shut down and can not even communicate properly with others.
You would think being a grown up and having dealt with many stressful situations in the past that I would be used to it by now, but it seems to have gotten worse. My mind will not shut off from my worries until it gets dealt with, or more often than not, I run away from it so I do not have to face it at all.
I am currently at the point of fight or flight and my usual option choice is to get far away and admit defeat. That is all I have ever done, but it is not something that I can do this time. I mean I could, but I really do not want to.
There is no real need for this particular post, but I just felt the need to rant a little. There is always tomorrow.