Let me start off by saying that you mean far more to me than that word (friends) can express.
I have been on WordPress for just over a year now and I have had many ups and downs; Far more downs than I care for, but at this point I just have to accept that unfortunately it is a part of who I am. All I can do is try harder each time to prevent the struggles before they take hold.
Ever since I joined this community, I have been welcomed with open arms. I have received an unbelievable amount of support from all of you in the forms of likes, follows, reposts, kind and encouraging comments, donations and so much more. Some of you have gone above and beyond to show and tell me that you believe in me and it has continually touched my heart.
I can say with all honesty that I have never felt accepted anywhere before, in the real world or in the digital world. As hard as I tried, I always felt like I was in the shadows. I felt like nobody wanted to listen to what I said. My words and comments felt like a stray that was never noticed. I tried so hard to fit in that I felt like I was doing and saying things just to please others. This furthered my feelings of rejection, because I didn’t know how to act to get the approval of these people.
Fast forward to last year, I started this WordPress account. I am not certain at this point why I started this blog and I never in a million years predicted that it would become a second home to me filled with love and support of so many like minded, wonderful human beings.
I decided to be open and honest from the start. I suppose I figured that nobody would read my words and so I felt free to say how I really felt. All of a sudden people from all over the world were reaching out to me, informing me they could relate to my tellings or offering the most appreciated advice and encouragement.
For the first time in my life, I felt like what I said mattered. Not only could I be open and truly be myself, but I was also helping others. This has always been an important factor to me. I have always wanted to help people, but I wasn’t sure what I could do. I didn’t feel I had anything to offer.
I know I have said it before, but if it wasn’t for you, yes you who is reading this right now, then this blog would not exist. You have made this blog what it is today and you have helped me more than you will ever know. You gave me the confidence to speak up, you gave me a voice.
I truthfully don’t see what you do when it comes to the things I write, but I trust in your confidence in me and that is why I continue to do so.
I have spent the last year finding my voice and I think I have finally found it. There is so much I want to do and say and I believe it is possible, because you believe in me. I am not completely confident in myself, but I think that one day I can be.
Thank you for accepting me for who I am. Thank you for sticking with me, even when I have struggled. Thank you for listening to the things I have to say. Thank you for offering your kind words, advice and encouragement. Thank you for continued support. Thank you for giving me a voice. Thank you for giving me a place I can belong. Thank you for sharing your stories. Thank you for being brave. Thank you for being you. If I could hug each and every one of you I would.
Until next time, a thousand times, thank you.
Coincidentally, this is my 200th post. Which is all the more reason to say thank you!