No Problem? No Problem!

Something occurred to me today as I was casually washing the dishes and thinking on the subject of closure. This discovery probably should have been obvious and to those of you who read my posts regularly, you probably knew this about me before I did.

I, Sara of LaLa Land am a problem finder. What I mean by this is, if something is not wrong, then something is not right.

I am so used to there being obstacles, issues, hurdles, struggles, whatever you want to call it, that when I am in the position to sit back and enjoy life without all of the above, I simply cannot!

Today I realised myself creating a new problem as a replacement for something else that I had managed to put out of my mind. This might be the first time I have noticed myself do it and I just thought “What the hell am I doing?”

My fixations are getting the better of me, but I feel that the more I am aware of my behaviour, the more I come to cotton on to my strange ways of thinking. I am absolutely the creator of my own downfall and this point in my life. So, what do I do? Well, have several words with myself first off. And believe me, that is what I have been doing. I have given myself more telling off than I ever received in school. Fear not though, for I am not being hard on myself. I am not going to throw myself into the winds of depression. I am simply giving myself what I have always lacked, for lack of a better phrase, I am giving myself a ‘swift kick up the arse.’

The sun is shining, the birds are singing, the flowers are emerging from spring’s soil, so why am I not taking this opportunity to go out and witness that amazingness? Why am I sitting here thinking about what I could have said to someone ten years ago? I imagine the first reason is because I am human, and this is one of the less desirable traits of being human. The second reason and one I have way more control over is habit. Like I said I am used to a life of woes and so all I know is woe. It does not mean it has to be that way and so I am choosing no. I am going to put on my jacket, put on my shoes, put on some music and walk out of my front door. I am going to feel the breeze, smell the delicious food that comes from the nearby restaurants, I am going to listen to the chatter of the locals. That last part is a fabrication, I will be listening to music and hoping not to be noticed. One step at a time!

From this revelation, I hope that I can catch those trickling thoughts before they act more often. Who knows, the new me, No. The real me, might be just around the corner.

Until next time, have a beautiful day.

-Sara

(Photo: A rare sighting of me out in the wild circa 2016. I miss that jacket, I do not know what happened to it!)

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39 Comments

  1. O-M-G!!!! Reading your post this morning, striking epiphany! I had never realized this about myself but the moment I read your words, there it was….a discription on me on your page! Hi, I’m Laura….and I’m a problem finder.

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  2. I talk to myself quite a bit now, and I definitely tell myself off much more often than I used to. I find that it distracts my focus enough to lessen the intensity of whatever problem/issue/situation I’m facing, and my mind is clearer, too. It really works!

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      1. I tend to fixate on my own problems along with other people’s problems. People come to me like I am a therapist and I don’t know why. I feel that having to worry about their problems along with my own places my stress on myself. Does this happen to you too?

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      2. I understand what you mean and that is something I have done in the past. Letting others share their problems, temporarily made me forget about mine, but in the end they were always there. I hope you are okay.

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  3. You are doing it! Change the way you think the patterns you fall into. There is no point in rehashing the past. You cannot change it. Do not try to predict the future I mean unless you have ESP you never know what is going to happen. I struggled with this and like yourself I give myself a stern talking to. You totally have this I know you do. 💗💗

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  4. Yes, it’s true. And it’s just not a female thing. But I think it drives more women to Neurosis faster than men. So now you should see that you’re at least a quarter way up the ladder. The longer you stay on that rung, the more Neurotic you become.
    And not to give you another worry, but…if you go down a step or two, you’ll find paranoid schizophrenia waiting for you. Now there’s something to worry about.
    Hope you had a wonderful day in nature, filled with blooming flowers and singing birds. And no, they are not talking about you.
    Have you felt the urge to produce a poem or story lately? With each line I write I wonder, will it be enough to make Sara smile? But I never worry.
    Love and peace.

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    1. I never thought it was just a female thing, as most things, it can be experienced by a lot of people. I’m scared of heights, that might be why I stay in one place. 🙂

      It was a lovely day thank you, the weather was very nice, I didn’t even need a coat! I spot a bit of rain today, but nothing a coat with a hood can’t conquer. So I will be taking a walk again tomorrow. I managed 2.5 miles yesterday (although it felt like more!) I’ll see how far I manage to go today. I have some photos, but I think I will post them with my April wrap up post.

      I hope you’re well. All the best.

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