Hello, (dare I say) WordPress Family.
As you may have noticed, I have been having a tough time recently.
It has led me to a creative block, which has been most unfortunate, as this is my usual coping mechanism.
For the last week or so I have felt like something is missing and it just hit me that I genuinely miss being here on WordPress and interacting with all of you.
A further problem is that I do not want to write any old tat just for the sake of it. I prefer creative or meaningful pieces and I am sure you do too.
Overall, I am starting to feel like my old self. Getting to a place where you feel like you will never smile or feel happy again is pretty scary and I never know how I am going to react to these moods or what I am going to do to get out of them. Fortunately I have the greatest support system I have had in my entire life, both at home and also here online.
I must apologise if any of you caught my now deleted posts. I got a bit heavy and I decided that those kinds of words did not belong here on my blog.
When I posted the things that I did, a lot of you sent some truly heartwarming messages my way and I actually cried because I have never felt so cared for before. I never knew what it felt like and thus I was completely overwhelmed. This led me to feel guilty and silly for posting what I did and so I took it down and decided the best course of action was to take a break.
The break has done me some good and I feel myself slowing descending back towards normality. I hope with that my creativity returns too, because I miss writing.
I have thanked you for so many different things and now I want to thank you again. You all helped me out of my dark place.
I have never had so many hands offer to pull me up before and I do not know if I deserve it, but I sure do appreciate it. Thank you for your continued support and most importantly thank you for being there when I needed it the most.
Thank you to my friends who realised something was wrong and let me know they were there for me and thank you for the emails too. Just everything. You are all superheros and I wish I could give you all a hug.
The weekend is approaching and I hope you have yourself a good one.
Until next time, ❤