Who Am I?

It has been a while since I wrote here and was really real with you.

I must admit, I am still a little in limbo but this time in the digital world. It seems no matter what I try, balance is forever elusive!

I think if we are honest with ourselves, we all want an identity, to be noticed, to be thought of.

At this point in time, I do not even know how I would identify myself. In a variety of communities, I am the gamer, the streamer, the girl who tweets silly things, the girl with the mental health issues, the British girl in Sweden, the girl who writes poetry, the girl who draws, the girl who is writing a book which still is not finished.

The thing is, I am a bit of all of those things, but I do not feel like I have a platform to be everything in one place and so I have to section myself off into different platforms and it is difficult to fully be myself online. This has led to a real struggle with my online presence as my energy seems to only be enough for one area at a time. For example, if my energy is poured into streaming, then my blog takes a hit, it becomes abandoned. Something that upsets me greatly, as writing is something I love dearly. If I try to concentrate on my blog, then sometimes it will change my mood, persona and I get to a place where I do not feel like entertaining. For anybody who manages to balance all of these communities, I applaud you. I have no idea how you do it.

Ideally, there would be a platform where I could fully be myself, but I do not think there is such a place. I think on a whole, if there are those who follow me everywhere, they are able to gauge me better as a person, instead of those who only see one or two sides of me. I think this may be the same for a lot of people, having to section off parts of themselves to essentially fit in with the crowds they run with. I think it may be perhaps normal and some people manage it better than others.

To clarify, I am always myself, wherever I am. I just feel like I have to hold back certain sides of me, depending on where I am.

I suppose as I make it down to the bottom of this post, I know who I am fully, but you perhaps do not. I still need to work on balance, but I am sure over time, I will master that and it is a me problem.

If you have made any sense of this, please let me know your opinion on the matter and if this is something you struggle with too.

I went on a trip this weekend and took some pictures, so I will be sharing those with you on the next post.

Until next time, wrap up warm, it is cold outside!

-Sara

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  1. Human beings adapt to circumstances (it’s how we survive as a species) and our online presence is no different. If you know me in a writing context then that’s how you approach me. If you know me as a father or graphic artist, then those are the threads we weave together into a general friendship bond. People can be complex creatures. It’s doubtful that anyone really ‘knows’ anyone. We ‘know’ the portions of a personality that we have been exposed to. What you elect to reveal about yourself to certain people or groups says more about your temperament an openness than the actual details.

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  2. Ugh! I know how you feel😓 Just my social pages like Pinterest, Instagram, and Tumblr I haven’t been investing much into them. I just haven’t been feeling it. So don’t beat yourself too much for not being on ALL your platforms. Just come back when you’re ready😄

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  3. Hey, Sarah. I find it difficult too. I too like to do a lot of things and I find myself not able to channel my passion into everything at the same time. There are times when I end up writing nothing for months. I am trying to master the art of balance too. But here on WordPress, everyone’s so understanding and so I don’t feel that much of a pressure. Looking forward to seeing some great photos. God bless! 😊😊

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      1. Oh sorry about that 🙂. Yes, you are right. It is what makes me try harder too. The fact that my readers deserve my effort keeps me hooked and motivated. Sorry about the spelling the name wrong once again. Stay blessed 😊

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  4. I’m 67 now and it’s taken a long time to find myself, and I don’t think we ever stop searching, life is like that, because there’s always a new event or obstacle to adjust to. !!. And still struggle with all my platform that I post my poetry on. Facebook ( It’s ok for my friends), Twitter(Is too concise and confusing), and WordPress can be time consuming with blogging, and I’m slowly learning not to worry about the fact that I can never keep up with all my readers and followers…
    I think it’s all a process of finding your own comfort level and balance. All the best dear Sara

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  5. Sara you make a lot of sense to me. I am dealing with the same set of issues in real time that you write about.

    Mental health issues are just issues, and issues are just situations, and situations are just things that crop up. You are totally fine in every way. That’s a mantra and you can use it again and again.

    I like your content.

    Matt

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  6. I don’t believe I’ve ever encountered anyone who sounds more like me except that you are are talented in more ways than I can ever hope to be. I posted my last effort about being able to change the way and the means of doing different things titled The Path to Inspiration and have many poems along the same line.One of my poems asserts that she not be ”pushed to the forefront of people and things, for she prefers to scurry off to the shadows well-spun and away from the crowds.” I write, draw and paint, a little of the last two, quite a lot of the first. At least I have published three books and am now on number four. I don’t know how old you are but you have a long way to go to be sure that what you are now has a lot of room for new things to come. Don’t lose faith and if I may add a piece of advice listen to others instead of living your own idea of yourself. You’ll make it, I’m sure. Stop by to see me again!

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    1. Hey Marie, thank you for your kind words, they mean a lot. But don’t underestimate yourself. You’ve published 3 books! That is an amazing achievement and something I aspire to. I will keep and eye out for more of your posts. Thank you for stopping by. 🙂

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