Gibberish (free writing)

Set the timer… 20 minutes… Go!

My mind on painkillers is as mushy as the mashed potato I will be consuming for dinner tonight. Thank you wisdom tooth! Of course I say this with the utmost sarcasm as pain and infection are not fun, neither is lack of food and sleep.

Sometimes I have so many thoughts to share and I forget to write them down, now my mind is blank when I wish I had something to say. I shall persevere, as I have to do this for maybe 18 more minutes.

I do not know if free writing consists of personal anecdotes or it should be filled with fictional stories. Either way, this is a learning curve and it is what it is.

I actually do not think I have said anything of substance yet, but I am trying.

I have spent the past two days mostly resting in hopes that my mouth will give me a break from the pain. I cannot see a dentist until at least next week, so it is painkillers and mashed potatoes for me until then.

I had a dream last night, it was not pleasant. It was graphically gory and I know that is not for everybody, so I will leave it there. My dreams are scary a lot of the time, but I do not think I could do without them.

My vivid imagination is set to play constantly, but I suppose it can be quite fun most of the time and it does make for good stories. I do not share many stories on WordPress, which is strange as I write so many. It seems to just be poetry. I should remedy that. If I am honest, I fear the reception and that my stories will no be good enough, so I hold them close to me instead. What is a writer if they cannot write a decent story? What would I do then?

Another blank spell unfortunately. I literally did not know what to think about. I suppose it is a nice break not having my mind filled with everything constantly, I should be grateful for this time. Although it is not good when I am setting myself a free writing challenge right now, that is when I need the thoughts to turn into words.

I wonder how long it has been. My timer has not gone off yet, so I need more thoughts. Come on brain, you can do it!

Holding attention right now is a difficult tasks. Perhaps… I forgot what I was going to say. I have taken a fair few painkillers. I suppose this is the reason behind… I forgot what I was going to say again. Come on Sara, concentrate.

I fear that if I ever read this back, I will regret writing it and posting it, which is what I figure I will do next.

I have been trying to get back into reading. Anything keeping my attention has been quite the task though. I thought perhaps trying audiobooks, but is that cheating? I do not know. I have never actually tried an audiobook, perhaps they will not keep my attention either.

I am hungry, I wish I could eat solid food. Once I get these infernal wisdom teeth removed, I will not be able to eat solid foods for two weeks, I am not looking forward to that, I love a good meal.

My birds are being noisy. How can creatures so small make that much noise. The cute, noisy buggers.

I do not think this is free writing, but I tried! I think my time is up, I hope you have a great weekend and I hope I Become, what is the word? Understandable again soon. That was not the word I was looking for, but I do not remember what it was right now.

There is the timer!

-Sara

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37 Comments

  1. hmmm wisdom teeth and pain are not fun, but this piece sure was. i like reading stream of thoughts. i havent tried them yet, like the stories you’re afraid of posting i don’t think i’ll be able to write a stream people will be able to read and enjoy.

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    1. I can’t remember what I wrote to be honest and I don’t think I want to look back and read it, but there are people that enjoyed it for some reason. Don’t sell yourself short, your thoughts are just as valuable as anybody else’s.

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      1. Jina, I am the same way! I dread to think what ramblings I have released to the cyber world, but I do my best to speak fairly in any circumstance, so I like to think that whatever I have written is not so bad. πŸ™‚

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  2. This is the first time I read one of your posts and I honesty related big time to the past about substance in the writing. I also like to ramble on with random thoughts to the point where I don’t even know where I’m heading with my writing. Was nice that you liked one my posts. Thank you and I’m glad you liked it. We are similar minded individuals 😊

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      1. Seeing similar things in your writing to mine actually boosted my confidence. I was doubting myself. Thought I was doing it wrong πŸ˜‚. But after seeing your writing I’m good πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚

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  3. This is exactly what freewriting is! I felt like I was sitting inside your mind with an ear to your inner stream of consciousness. Getting your wisdom teeth out is not fun. But you can sit and binge on Netflix, read or just sleep. You have a new follower in me. xo

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